Emotionally Oblivious: Second Chance

Now I had a second chance you know at the thing called love. Now I'm not sure if it was love or a mere fact of infactuation, but mann was I in it to win, but due to YOUR luck & how things fuck up my picture frame wont contain us.

I had the best summer one year one of those you never seem to forget. I remember the way we kissed, the way your hands slowly guided its way to find mine. It was one of those hot summers that make your hairs stand up just thinking about all the moments, laughs, and tears that were shared.. I find it kind of odd though the way things just seem to fall into place, but I had felt alive again .. You know that feeling that feels like your dreaming and you never want to wake up because then your afraid that time just might change us.. & i knew I had to hold on to you, because I imagined life with you and how delicious it would just be, & leaving you was one of the hardest things to deal with because everytime I saw you I knew we had an expiration date, but even though you were a thousand miles away I swear you couldnt have felt any closer. My heart was a home and I gladly invited you....and it didn't have to be "sunny" for me to "delight" you. All those nights we shared with beautiful conversations slowly turned into nights of missing you... the old you. As days passed I noticed the change in you .. Don't you remember? Aren't you familiar with that man I once knew, because there was no more I love yous ..The visits lessend.. criticism got worst .. fights just seem to grow . I was losing faith in you, but still I imagined you to be this GREAT man in my head & man did I love him ..and love blinds your eyes....so u can't even see.....so whatever you hear touch taste or breathe your mind makes you believe....how ironic? I thought seeing was believing.....and you what? I believe it, and no matter all the fights all the let downs I still held on .. & as our lives slowly unraveled another year to come. There was no more growth I mean we were growing up but our lives seemed so different now .. we didnt connect no more.. had nothing to talk about until one night you poured your heart out to me, as I asked simple questions but the person acts stupid...and it aint hard to give simple answers....but when you lie you tend the chatter....on and on to change the subject...flipping the topic until you say fuck it but your so blinded in a game of seeing....that you hold their hand and follow them leading...& I know it was my fault to have let it ride for so long because advice was given but apologies and smiles easily fixed it. my eyes were open but I wasnt watching shyt.. I didn't acknowledge it even when things were obvious. My heart slowly turned to ice.. see now you got to work over time to make up for what you lost but of course very few are willing for that cause so you quit.....hoping to find better benefits and still get to come back without putting in a two weeks notice but I must say life is quite the character.