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Today I cried. Cried real hard,

I cried because I felt the pain of another

... someone I have never met .

I had a happy home & a criminal that used the word love had stripped the happiness away. I decided to lock all the doors because I believed his kind had a breed and they were out running lose out there. & then I saw you & I wondered how you got in. I had forgotten to lock my windows cause I didn't believe anyone would climb up the rails. Now here you are by my side so this time I locked the windows because YOU & I keep each other warm on those cold stormy nights & cool on those hot summer days.

Every man and every woman that is unable to have a relationship should have a BEWARE or even just the B sewed in to every piece of clothing they own. I think that is why they wrote the scarlet letter to tell us that.

I use to believe that when it rained god was crying, but then I heard the news and they said it was el nino. I use to believe that a credit card was free money given to you and then I got the bill. I use to believe in santa until I saw my gifts in bags in a closet. I use to believe we lived in a world full of opportunities but I saw what they do to those people overseas. I use to believe that when the sun was out while it rained a witch some where was getting married but my teacher introduced me to science. I use to believe that I had magic powers I just needed to get in tune with my own magic but I was unable to read peoples minds when I wanted to. I use to believe that the government was here to protect us, but then I saw that they are here to dictate us. I use to believe in many things that was the beauty of being young no one is there yet to shatter your dreams. because I use to believe.

It is on these cool breezy nights just like this one that I believe you exist. I know it is you that touches the skin to my cheeks. I know it is you that blows against the strands of my hair. I know it is you that makes me feel young, free, and alive. Please come visit me tomorrow evening once again. Because I know it is you.

Imagination is the only thing that keeps you alive. It is the movie that is played in your head over and over again through all the hours of the day. YOU are the director to that movie. Make it worthwhile. I only ask of you for one thing that is to play the part so well as if you were getting paid to do so. If they are positive things I would really love it if you made them happen in reality we would all love to watch it with you.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU CREATE .

WHO is your soulmate? is it the existence of another human being or that of your own self? WHAT is it that binds two people together to build a foundation and have it all coming undone? WHERE is it that true happiness exist where every aspect of your life seems going swell with no mixed feelings or confusion? WHEN is it that enough becomes enough cause define me what really is enough? and most certainly WHY is it that we attach ourselves to the one that truly does not want us but ignore the ones that chase after us?

Thoughts cloud your mind religiously. Emotions filling you up food no longer even looks appetizing. I was made a victim to your crime. I was put through a bittersweet misery. Now that I'm free its time for you to serve your time. Read many books while your there. They will teach you what the importance is of just expressing yourself.

The most beautiful thing in this world is not having a significant other, its not having a big wedding, its not diamond rings, badass cars, it is having the gift of beautiful friends that wrap it all up with a ribbon with all of your secrets .

We swore to never leave each other we are both going to hell. We promised to always be together but dishonesty broke that. Our hands and our skins became best friends and had great conversations now enemies they've become. For that I dont apologize.

I don't understand why the human race pays to watch horror movies at the movies when cnn, news at 11, every news channel on tv provides severe REAL horror for free.

I had been blindfolded, chained down, stripped naked from my own existence. After one cold winter night that love had ran away from me. Devastated I filed a report and to my surprise their were about 99,999,999 amber alerts out for love. It put me at ease with the cops but my heart had been shattered. My innocence had been taken from me all on a cold winter night.

Don't believe that the world is bigger than you. You are bigger than it. You are the future to it.

After your first heartbreak you have bloody visions. Your eyes are chained to view the world so different. It all used to be green but the other side wasnt so pretty. The earth has turned black and white leaving a trail of your bleeding heart. Unlock the chains and open your eyes it wasnt because it wasnt meant to be. It was because he wasnt the one you deserved to have.

Many have crossed my path. A lot have touched my lives. I have been left with many stories to tell when I'm gray. There were those who have made me cry, laugh, sing, and have said their farewells. The ones who have stoled from me, betrayed me, kissed me, and made love to me. BUT their has only been three who I hold closest to me. In this world you will meet plenty but to meet a true friend is like shopping for the perfect dress on your period. I was lucky to have met three in my life. My best friends, my soulmates, my light when it gets dark, my shadows when I lose myself, my mirrors when I forget who I'am. My Orions belt.

Trillions of stories waiting to heard. Billions of people searching for love. Millions reaching out for a friend. Thousands waiting to live. Hundreds feeling alone. Ten of them dying every second. BUT it only takes one person to make a difference.

I CONCUR !

My legs hurt, my heart is broken, my arms ache, my mind wanders. I had sat around pointing fingers for so long. I finally saw the abscence of a significant other. I started feeling the need of anothers company to keep me warm on those cool breezy nights. I never realized that the only one I was running from was from myself. My tennis shoes have grown old bearing the toes that were once painted gold. Im tired of running I have reached the finish line.

Its when your on that road where millions surround you with a story to tell just like yours. Its when you feel alone and forget who you are that you become the most beautiful.

It's when your fast asleep that the angels come out to fight with the night to allow you to have a second chance. Another day.

The problem was the dream that we lived in and the reality that we lived in didn't befriend each other. It was only when we slept, kissed, and made love together that our eyes were closed we opened our eyes to late to realize that we weren't meant for one another.

I wrote a story about our love, but you were to far for it to reach you. I decided to put a stamp on it with no address on it so then maybe someone at the post office or however far it reached someone would enjoy the things we shared.

I used to believe that I didn't need someone but one doesn't exist without the other . what is the sun without the moon.. Harmony without chaos.. Peace without war .. Love without hate.. Dark without light .

we all need someone. and it does not mean co-dependence .

I had a dream last night and you were in it, when I awoke I was clouded with thoughts of you. I sent you a text seven hours later when you replied I had already forgot I wrote you in the first place. I didn't find a need in replying .. In my dream you were sweet but in reality you are a sour existence of pure negativity. I have already cleansed my soul from your filthy soul. No more dirt, no more pain, no more us. and I like it that way .