I have always loved CHANGE, but sometimes its just so sad.

Looking back at my earlier teenage years I must admit I have had my share of fun:

Clubbing nights, watching the sunrise, it was party all night sleep all day. At fourteen getting into almost every club that was 18 years and over Now that Im of age it all seems played out to me. We all want to grow up so fast that we miss out on the good things in life that are supposed to be experienced at a certain time, and to see all these 14, 15 and 16 yr old girls having babies hurts me, because they dont get to squeeze all the good juice in life. & oh the wonders of friendships that have came and went as quick as the seasons change .. the relationships who were once a flower and died out like it never got watered, but I guess its all a part of growing up. Imagine a world without change.. hmm .. how sad it would truly be. & this is OUR generation you know the one you hear about being said " how sad this generation has come to be" but Im almost 100% sure the grown folks forgot who raised us.

PARTY LIFE

Ladies Night ♥

Lavish Night Life .

MEN .

hmm ..

If every women in the world was given a chance

to help write a dictionary about what defines a man

I wonder how long that book would be.

I'm pretty sure every women has had a good share of experiences

with a player, a thug, a man trying to find himself, an emotional spill type,

and the ones that you only find at night.

I must say life is quite the character.

but we as women are so fragile that we fall for the ones who don't even deserve

us .. that seem to manipulate your thoughts, and grasp a hold of you so

tight that you cant seem to shake it off, funny shit is he's not even touching you

& ends up hurting you more then bleeding and bruises. That's probably why

most of us let scar tissue replace our heart, so we feel nothing,

express nothing, and rid of those who are trying to get close.

so you become this lady with your head held high yearning for a significant other

but when they hand you there resume you don't believe what your given

cause wasting your time on some else is not your desire.

To afraid to open your heart and invite someone in .

but its like why give some stranger your heart?

I think this is where WE as women fuck up !

Why give the last person in your life the benefit to make such a BIG impact in your life

and hold you from true happiness when he wasn't worth shit to begin with.

I'm not the vengeful type and sit here and talk shit about the man because

in one point of it he did make me happy, and that's where we must all

come to realize .. he wasn't the right one for you but to some one

else he probably will mean the world to her ..

so ladies when LOVE knocks the shit out of you &

NOBODY is there to pick you up.

PUT on some HOT ass heels PARTY HARDY and let love find you

& when it touches you .. cherish it .

life is to short to want something but be to afraid of letting it happen

most of us are MORE afraid of a heartbreak then falling in love.

As you can probably tell all my blogs have been pieces of my poetry ..

I haven't really actually sat down and blogged about my ideals and thoughts .

If I could sit down and write down every little thing that goes through my head

for the 365 days that are in every year, 24 hours that are in the day we would

all be sitting here for hours upon hours .

I've visited a couple of blogs and I must say that its funny how we think

we are the only people that are probably going through a bad break up

family crisis, dead beat job, school is giving us a headache,

and that feeling in your body that tells your mind you just

want to get away far far way to a place where everything is strange

and start a ENTIRE new life where no one knows you.

& when your ready .. come back to your life here ..

Im pretty sure somebody has felt that way cause geesz.

I sure have .

hmm ..

so let me start by saying HELLO to everyone who has read my blog

or follows me. Sometimes I might not update because I've been a tad held up with

this new job, and school right around the corner.

but ill always come around <3

Last night I took a journey with you .. we soared far away from here today

forgetting all of our struggles from yesterday.

Emotions ran deep inside of me just looking in your eyes I could see you & I in we

Haven't felt this way in a about a couple of years

I could tell your past has scarred you probably even made you shed some tears.

This is where I come in and have you drop your defenses,

because I don't want this to end right after it starts.

If you met me now you wouldn't have met me then when things got hot

I was quick to leave breaking more hearts then deceased at a cemetery,

but our trip together made a change in me, no longer

afraid to invite you in so kick off your shoes and get comfortable

because according to the stars our match is compatible,

and my oh my how delicious it would be to inhale your smell,

kiss your lips, and caress your skin traditionally.

You called today, I heard it in your voice the way you missed me.

You longed for those long lost days that I made love to your mind

but you made shit so complicated I had to leave it all behind.

My heart grew tired of that pain you feel when your all alone

when I was on my hands & knees & you faced your back to me.

I must ADMIT

I lost myself in you, took a while to get back,

but that love I had for you it was young & lord how I have grown.

You asked how I was doing today & it was such a beautiful day,

I responded honestly "I'm great. how are you?"

& to your dismay you answered shocked " wow I haven't heard you say that in a while"

As if I was supposed to be missing your love being down and out,

despair crawling all over me, but you had the best of me now that I'm gone

you probably realize it was all worthwhile.

emotions run deep with me.. real deep.. inside of me

& Yeidi and (his name here) are long past due

because I love ME way more then I love you.

so when you find that one true love you know that girl who will treat you

like shit and you surrender to her because making the same mistakes twice is

not your desire. I hope you think of me cause you could have had it all

there was a BEST in we. & it aint about we aint meant to be

because faith without "work" aint shit its WEAK.

& you were a BAD employee .

so glasses in the AIR I raise a toast to every man who lost me .

because there's no better replica of the blue print copy.

<3

BADASS.

welcome to my world .

me in a nutshell

I

dreamBIG

hateNEVER

loveDEEPLY

thinkTOOMUCH

partyHARD

drinkLIGHTLY

laughLOUDLY

cryRARELY

missMANY

regretNOTHING

obcessionBLACKBERRY

haveTWOBFFS

& like ice in my milk :)