This is about a special friend .....

One of those rare to find cut beautifully gems that hurt your eyes ..

I connected with you in ways I cant even explain.
conversations with you were so appetizing.
If I carried the fetus of my unborn child and I yearned for a craving I wouldn't have to send someone off to get it for me because it would be you.

I'd want to swallow every morpheme, phrase, sound, term, usage that rolled off of the tip of your tongue just so he could digest it.

I dived deep into the windows of your soul still grasping a hold of the topics you chose, but I found myself lost in the words.

It was like meditation for my mind not yet body but soul. Things could have been easy, but oh my to my surprise I was guarded so well that the walls that I've built were stronger than that of the berlin wall cause they wouldn't come down.

The intensity of all my emotions inside were so vivid that if I had an ultrasound you'd think it was living.

I carried a heart, but it as well had a heart beat.

I'd hear a thump louder and louder and louder every time you told me stories about the illuminati, masonry, ghost, because you see we don't even have to kiss and you turn me on like a light switch.

& no no no I'm not here trying to put a move on you sexually, cause without the touch of your skin I'm already on ecstasy, its that feeling you feel inside but you cant explain it until you try the drug.

Yeah I'm rolling balls cause we create love, but its mentally,

and the tongue that we speak is all censored I'm not even allowed to curse.

The way we speak is non-commercial safe for the little ears and we don't even work for Z88.3. you know that christian radio. ( pause as thoughts cloud over me )

now tell me why aren't we an item the type you see at one of those up-scale stores, rare, and expensive but you cant buy one without the other? Oh yeah, I remembered its because no matter all your unique individuality I still cant seem to find peace within and let you in.

Im sorry my dear, but everything inside its just not crystal clear .

forgive me my friend.

but this curse eating inside of me will deprive you from having me.