" It's amazing the care one loses to someone that turns out be something but someone"

- Coco Chanel

You have to choose the things you want to win or lose ..

I've chosen myself and left you alone, & now your down & out, got you carrying the blues .

but the things that got confusing was ..You & me

because my moments spent with you felt like you were overseas ..

losing me was something you never wanted

so now the scent of my hair, the taste of my lips have left you haunted .

but you should have known that you let me down .

& now that im gone I guess the tables have turned, & now your left with a frown ..

after all of the times I used to pout & cry

I guess now you know you should have treated me with more courtesy ..

so now I bid you farewell .

& even though this hurts ..

it will hurt you more then it hurts me

& you may disagree, but the time is right

& unlike you my heart will grow stronger overnight

while yours .. oh poor you .. it will bleed while the walls close in on you

but I hope you find a better love & treat it right . & for this I pray deeply.

because without you I now have time to concentrate on myself

& love the inner I & this i'll pursue.

& for this I thank you .

Everlasting Love

I love you more then words could explain ..

Its like being addicted to something but it isn't cocaine.

I concentrate on you from the moment my eyes open wide .

& with you I promise to solely strictly abide, & remain on your side.

I carry you deep in my heart, think of you religiously .

Put you before anybody, Have you in my prayers ..

cause putting you next to someone nothing ever compares.

Made god realize how special you truly are to me ..

& with you ill even agree to even disagree.

Even let the world know that because of you I will never fail ..

& without you it would be so hard to exhale & inhale .

I've come to the conclusion that without you I would surely DIE .

& because I love you I know that you will never let me down

feeling all alone .

I'd like you to meet this person ..

her name is I if you knew her too

you'd realize that putting someone before yourself is long overdue.

As months passed by, we came together again .

I : I haven't heard from you in months.

He : I wrote you .

I : I never received it .

He : I never sent it .

Pride is one of our biggest MISTAKES.

Thought .....

I question today about ONE obstacle we face ...

how hard it is to love someone, find someone, & maintain that love .

It's as if the most beautiful things have the saddest endings ..

& no one can judge me if you have never felt this way ..

going through something that you felt like you couldn't get through ..

& no matter how much you try to let it go, it seems so hard

& the days drag on, you maintain yourself so busy so thoughts

of what used to be no longer are thought of ..

& you cant even remember the last kiss, last hug, last intimate moment

that was shared, because the truth is as time passes you forget them as they too

forget you ... its like going on a battle with time wishing it could win ..

let the days pass by, nights creep in and memories start diminishing.

& you start to see less and less of those beautiful moments that were shared

& more and more of the bad things start becoming more vivid ..

opens up your eyes to so many things you were to blind to see ..

because all you saw was a everlasting love .. & the more you held the

harder he tugged .. It was a constant see saw commotion but you always ended up at the bottom .. wondering why ? why cant god just help me ? why cant I just pick up my bags and leave ?

why don't good things happen if i believe . I know what I say and I understand what I speak because I was once the writer and director of that train.

Getting my heartbroken by one , & breaking the heart of another .

so to all who face this ; Im guessing its a part of this thing called LIFE.